Uncertainly Certain

These last few days have been a whirlwind. While things have come together and we are almost ready to leave the country, I feel like we have left so many things unfinished. I was saying to a friend the other day that I don’t feel like we are leaving well. I wish that we had more time to say good-byes. I wish I had a completed thesis that was ready for submission. Everything is nearly finished, but few things are finished. That being said, I will have an opportunity to come back in the Fall and finish everything. Right now we have more important things to do.

Constant Companion

I have gotten good at this. It is odd. I don’t enjoy it. I find it to be a pain, but I have gotten really good at this. We all have those talents that we never thought we would develop, but by the sheer number of times you do it, you get good at it. Here I am again, and I know what to do. I have done this so much lately, and I am good at it. What is it?

Fear Not

People keep asking me how I am holding up these days. Our family has a few things on our plate: adopting a new daughter, moving back to the States, moving to a new city in the States, starting a new job. Oh in the midst of that, I am supposed to finish my PhD. We have a few things on our plate right now. So, how are we holding up? Well, to be honest, I think we are doing alright.

Disrupted by Grace

I am sure we have all had those moments in life when things are going smoothly, and then all of the sudden you get news, and it changes everything. It can be big news (wedding proposal, pregnancy, death, job change, etc.) or it can be small news (a child wakes up earlier than expected, someone is running late, you have run out of coffee in the house, etc.). It really doesn’t matter what the news is, all of the sudden all of your plans change.

Hard but Good

So, I am in the final stages of this PhD. Editing is the worst. I read a tweet a few weeks back that said, ‘Finishing a PhD is like finishing a group project where your partner made a ton of mistakes at the beginning of the assignment. Except your partner is just you 4 years ago.’ Honestly, this is the truth. As I finish, I keep finding things to fix, change, add, remove. It is a painful process, but it is good. There are times when you just want to quit because it feels like you have already written all of this, but now you need to re-write all of it. But you just keep pressing on.

Continuing to Work

This is going to be a quick post this week because I am in the midst of the final push to get this thesis done. I am working long hours and really just ready to be done. However, it isn’t done yet. I still have a lot to do. My final chapter is getting close to the end, but the moment I finish, I will start editing and adding words to the project. I have a lot work to do.

Waiting for Grace

Ever since we received news about Grace, we have had things to do; grants to apply for, paperwork to fill out, etc. However, the last few weeks we have had nothing. We have just been waiting. Waiting for news. Waiting to hear what is next. Waiting to know when we can leave. Waiting for enough money to come in to bring Grace home. Just waiting.

Peace and Distraction

It is always an arresting thing to read the Bible and realize how many times the Lord promises ‘peace’ to his people. I was reminded of this again this last week as I listened to the sermon at Christ Church. David Court, preached on John 20:19-23. What was striking was David’s point that the first words Jesus says when he comes into this locked upper room is, “Peace be with you.” This is a group of his disciples. They are beleaguered, fearful, and unsure about the future. Jesus shows up and he blesses them with peace.