These last few days have been a whirlwind. While things have come together and we are almost ready to leave the country, I feel like we have left so many things unfinished. I was saying to a friend the other day that I don’t feel like we are leaving well. I wish that we had more time to say good-byes. I wish I had a completed thesis that was ready for submission. Everything is nearly finished, but few things are finished. That being said, I will have an opportunity to come back in the Fall and finish everything. Right now we have more important things to do.
I am excited about our next steps. There is so much that is in front of us, and I can’t wait for it all to start coming together. I can’t wait to see what happens next. There is so much uncertainty in our lives right now. What will our time in Lesotho be like? How will our homecoming go? How will my new post at Covenant go? It is only a year, what comes after that? How will my thesis be received when I submit it and my examiners read it? How will my family adjust to all the changes these next few months have in store? Everything is certainly uncertain.
Yet, as I contemplate all of this, I am comforted. I am comforted by the promises that we find all over Scripture. Those promises that remind us that in the midst of uncertainty God’s is certain. Even as I worry about the future. Even as I think about what the next months hold for my family, our next move, my thesis and career, I can rest in the fact that none of this is uncertain. I can rest in the fact that God holds my future in his hand. Because God has set his love upon us, we can rest secure under his wing.
He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will abide in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say to the Lord, “My refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.” - Psalm 91:1–2
Tomorrow we get on a plane for Lesotho. We leave Scotland behind. We leave a massive amount of memories, almost all of them good memories. We leave a portion of our hearts here. Yet, we go to Lesotho and we start a new adventure. Our lives, our hearts, our family will be changed forever. While, inevitably, there will be pain down the road at some point, I have hope. I have hope not because I know exactly what will happen in the next weeks, months, or even years, but because I know the One who holds the next weeks, months, and years in his hands. The Lord is on my side, what have I to fear?