Disrupted by Grace
I am sure we have all had those moments in life when things are going smoothly, and then all of the sudden you get news, and it changes everything. It can be big news (wedding proposal, pregnancy, death, job change, etc.) or it can be small news (a child wakes up earlier than expected, someone is running late, you have run out of coffee in the house, etc.). It really doesn’t matter what the news is, all of the sudden all of your plans change. You have to start rethinking everything and your schedule needs to be rearranged. It may not require massive changes; perhaps the changes only take a split second. (I will wait to put the pasta on stove for 15 minutes since they are going to be late.) The adjustment may be massive, requiring days planning and decision making. (With the new baby on the way, do we need to buy a new house?) Whatever the case may be, there is often something disruptive about the unexpected.
The thing that I have found fascinating in my own life is that when I look back on those disruptive moments, what I find is that there is grace in them. Grace has this way of being a disruptive power in our lives, doesn’t it? It breaks into our lives when we least expect it. I was just at the local watering hole, some guy told me everything about my life, and now all I can do is go and tell everyone I know about this guy. I just heard that this big name speaker was coming through town, so I climbed up a tree to see him. He invited himself over for dinner, and now I am giving my entire ill-gotten fortune away. We are often comfortable and then grace confronts us and interrupts our plans.
In our home the past couple weeks, all that has been comfortable and normal has been overturned. We had plans, but those plans have been thrown out the window. Honestly, it is a little stressful. It is hard to try to navigate everything. It is quite exhausting, but it is also a gracious disruption. This Grace is changing everything.
Last week we got news that our adoption is moving faster than we expected. It surprised us. Then we found out that our plans for travel had to change. I needed to move on this thesis. We needed to figure out flights to Lesotho. We needed to get the house packed up. We need to figure out what we were going to do when we got to the States. We have been rethinking all of our plans; every last one of them. This news has forced us to reconsider how we are approaching every part of our life. Honestly, it has been a little overwhelming. Nevertheless, it has also been very good. As a family, we are being stretched. All of the unnecessary things in our life are being tossed off, and we are able to look to the important.
So here is what I am learning in all this; while grace is disruptive, it is also a gift. It is a good gift. It doesn’t disrupt our lives and leave them in shambles. Grace disrupts our lives and conforms us into the image of Christ. It changes who we are and what we desire. When we are disrupted by grace, we no longer yearn for the water that only quenches our thirst for a moment. We long for streams of living water. When grace disrupts our lives, the pursuit of money, power, prestige, or status no longer becomes the driving force in our lives. Those things which once gave our lives purpose are pushed out, and we are made more like Christ.
These past few weeks have been hard. Grace has disrupted our lives… and we are better for it. In my own life I am able to see how the Lord has given me this disruptive moment as a gift. He has bestowed grace on my life, and it has jarred me awake. The grace of our Lord has worked on me and my family. We are being conformed to the image of Christ, and this is a good thing. The refining fire of grace may not always be comfortable, but it is always good.
Grace has entered our lives. Grace has disrupted our lives. Grace has changed our lives. Grace has sustained our lives. Amazing grace, How sweet the sound…